Almost every day for the past 20+ years, I’ve worn a simple gold pendant around my neck. I could probably count the number of times I’ve gone without it. It was a petite, oval (though not elongated) St Christopher that I bought from a small independent jeweler who had studied at the Goldschmidtehaus in Hanau Germany. I don’t remember how much I paid for it at the time, maybe $100 or so but I bought it shortly after my daughter was born and I had them engrave it with the words Carpe Diem on the back. I bit unconventional I know but I always wanted to be reminded of God’s presence and that each day was an opportunity. It wasn’t like the pendants you can buy here in the states. Honestly, I’ve never seen another one like it. It didn’t have the saint’s name emblazoned on the front. Only the image of Christoper holding the baby Christ. Like I said, it was simple.
Those who know me, know I’m not a big jewelry person. The necklace is the only thing I wear on a daily basis. I’d much rather have a few pieces that mean a tremendous amount to me personally than a collection of pieces for the sake of having them. This one little pendant to me was priceless even though it probably wasn’t worth much to anyone else. I had always promised to give it to my daughter when my time comes to pass. I had hoped that one day she could pass it on to her daughter.
This morning the chain broke and the pendant is gone. I’ve lost it forever. The chain can be replaced. The pendant, that’s another story. I’ve searched through Ebay and several online stores, but all of those pendants seem to be cookie cutter images of each other. Quite simply, they aren’t my St Christopher. They’re not even close.
I’m not usually one to get attached to material things. I don’t have to have the latest gadget that comes out or buy the fanciest car but this little pendant had seen me through my entire adult life. It was with me when my son was born and when we traveled to Alaska. It saw me through various career changes and through trails and tribulations I hope to never encounter again. It was a constant soothing reminder that I could keep close to my heart through good days and bad.
And now it’s gone.
Realistically, I know there are many worse things to go through in life. The loss of a simple pendant won’t alter the course I’m on nor will it detract from my successes. It can ultimately be replaced by another pendant that is similar though not quite the same.
I know all these things in my mind yet my heart is saddened at the loss of something so dear. And today, my shoulders feel far heavier without the simple little St Christopher around to shield them.